New Year, New Entry

 It's been quite sometime since the last entry and to be honest I completely forgot that I have a blog! Wow, rumour about taking medicine is actually true. Naah, I actually kind of lost my interest in posting some-entry-diary-feelings thingy. The thing that actually triggers my little piece of heart to come back and write someting before-it-disappears is one of my old friend blog entry. I accidentally googled my own name and my friend's entry popped up! It's really sad to read it though. All the memories are just so....Oh I miss them so mucho!

I am really proud of them, we are all in different places taking different courses and some are taking just the same as mine, and they are laughing and having fun with different people. Well, that is life. You have to move on, go to new places, meet new friends and enjoy yourself to the fullest. But there is one time, at one point when you sit down and you look and sift through all your past memories and then, suddenly, all the joys at the past start to rush in. You started to reminisce how much fun you were in high school. My teacher once said, the greatest memory of all is the memory of your high school life.

And that is true, so fucking freaking true. All the joy, pain, sorrow I had experienced back in high school cannot be traded with gold and money. They are just damn precious memories that you want to keep on replay over and over again. These memories always bring me good laughter everytime I try to keep track on how fool I was back then. My friends were great now and then, eventho I think some of them changed, and maybe they think I changed as well. Yeah, I think I did. I feel kind of sad whenever i saw their pictures on Facebook and all I can recognize is their face. It has been about 3 years or so and new names keep emerging so it is quite hard to remember hundreds of names.

I spent a lot of time at school and less time with my family. I hate all the chaos, the bullying, the antis, problems at school but these are all the things that made my high school life merrier and alive. I didnt want to study all day, eventhough that was what I actually do in the past but now evrything has changed. I am more to "enjoy the moment" and study smart as well. I am not that tiny teeny nerdy teenagers anymore, I am almost twenty one by next month. Ok I dont know why I am typing all these bullshit things. All i want to say is I really miss my school life but I dont want to re-live my highschool, I just miss all the good things I experienced there, my friends, teachers and staffs (i dont know why the staffs are included, but it wont complete without them).

Reading some of my friends blog about the "2010 glory" really moved me. It was not really all about me. It is about us. I wont open the book if you didnt ask me questions, I wont study so hard if you didnt ask me to teach you, I wont think hard if you didnt give me hard questions. I wont say because if you dont ask me why.That all make me, well what I am right now. That's why whenever my little juniors ask me how to excel in exams, well, after you think you have mastered them all, teach your friends who are in need, because they might have some questions that can make you think deeper and help you in return. Dont be selfish okay!

BTW, I really miss school. I miss the classroom (form five only), library where we used to hang out and online whenever we want, koop where all of us get busy and gossiping and bossing the juniors around, dorms, dining hall where we would freak out if JLo is looking around to target people who wear slippers, basketball court, DSK where everything nice happened here, except when I got a haircut during inspection. huh, bad days.

My friends are all busy right now and i dont really see the time to hang out with them again this few months but I hope when the time comes, let's have a blast!